Well, it’s that time of the year again. For some people, the holidays can tend to be a bit stressful, but they don’t have to be. I never stressed out because I just didn’t celebrate the Holidays. Because of the abuse, as a child, I developed a dislike of all the holidays. They were just another day where I might do or say something that would set my father off.
When I had my daughter when I was 32, I decided I had to set my feelings aside so she would not grow up with bad feelings about the holidays. I raised her alone, the sad story of her father is in my book. Anyway, together, we decorated, shopped and cooked to make the holidays fun for her. I actually began to enjoy them but, when she was older and out on her own the holidays once again just became another day.
Later I moved in with my Mother and Bill, my step-father, who was great, to help my mother as he was having problems, but after he passed my mother didn’t want any reminders of Christmas. His birthday was around Christmas, and he passed the day before his birthday, so it took the joy out of Christmas for her. I didn’t argue so the next 18 years there were no decorations in the house for us.
Three years ago, at 93 my mother passed in her sleep, and the year after that I had a health issue to deal with, but this year at 76, and living alone with my two cats, Sugar and Spice, I am actually excited about the holidays. I went out and bought decorations, and a tree and my home looks like Christmas again. I’m even planning a holiday celebration with some of my neighbors. Holy Cow what has come over me?
For the first time in my life, I am free from everything that I was letting hold me back from being me. What a wonderful feeling. I AM FREE.
I know that Christmas is the celebration of the birth of Jesus, but I never thought of it that way in the past, but in the last 25 years I have been giving it a lot of thought, even though I did not celebrate in the traditional way.
Jesus was a wonder, he showed me the way to live my life to the fullest. He showed me Joy and Peace. He showed me the way to overcome everything that would try to stand in my way and prevent me from Glorifying God. He saved me from my past.
The way is to Repent, which means to ‘think again.’ I needed to rethink how I was living and about the choices I was making. Jesus knew the people of his time would not understand him if he talked on a higher metaphysical level, so he came to them at their level. His parables were about the people of that time, intending to meet them at a level they would understand. Of course, it is clear to me that his parables are timeless. They made me do some deep thinking about what is important in life.
Christmas is about Love, not stress. I have blogged about a lot of things that can help us through the holidays. I blogged about getting past my fears, the power of smiling, how listening to my inner voice can give me direction. I blogged about the power of the human touch, how I can think myself up the good life, how finding God can bring peace and harmony. One of my recent blog about criticism and how not to be offended by others words is very important at this time of the year. And last but not least, everything doesn’t have to be perfect, don’t worry about the small things. Just let love radiate from you, and you will have a joyful and peaceful Christmas.
I hope with all my heart that one of my blogs has helped you find more joy and peace in your life.
MERRY CHRISTMAS to one and all.