Out of Darkness, Into the Light

Thank you for joining me!

“Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.”    Luke 12: 32

Be sure to check my blog page. It is about my spiritual growth and how I overcame the adult effects of child abuse and continue to grow in my understanding of God and His creation. My blogs can now be heard on PLIR Prayerful Living Internet Radio. https://prayerfulliving.com/healingmusic/inspiration-weekly.html. They are found under INSPIRATION WEEKLY on the Healing music station.

I have written a book.

My story about child abuse and the effects is not unique and has been told hundreds of times, but we all tell it in our own unique way. I journaled off and on through much of my life, which was good when I decided to write my story, as I didn’t have to pick back through my memory for the facts. They were all written down at the time things happened. When I was in therapy my journal was written in the form of letters to my psychiatrist. Other things I wrote I put in the form of letters and started each chapter of my book with a letter.

My story is about the choices I made as an adult and their impact on my life. and how they improved as I gained a better understanding of who I am as God’s child.

The title of my book was, A CHRONICLE OF CHOICES, From Abuse to Absolution, with Letters from Michele. It has be condensed to, Out of Darkness, Into the Light, I agree with my editor it’s a better title. 🙂

My book is dedicated to adults who are suffering from the effects of child abuse, or any kind of abuse. It is a debilitating way to live. I know I was there. In my blogs I will be sharing excerpts from my book and the techniques I used to rise above my past and live in the now. How I clawed my way through the darkness and found the light.

Jesus said, “… freely ye have received, freely give.” (Matthew 10:8) and that is what I am trying to do. I am giving freely to my readers what I have freely received through my studies and the ‘still small voice” of God, in hopes that it will benefit you as much as it has me.  I did not just decide one day to write my book and start blogging. I was inspired to do this, and a little voice came to me that said, this is the time to share what you have learned.

I believe if I can reach one person with my healing message I will have accomplished my goal.

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And o’er earth’s troubled, angry sea  I see Christ walk, And come to me, and tenderly, Divinely talk.

By Mary Baker Eddy Miscellaneous Writings 1883-1896 Page 397:5

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39 thoughts on “Out of Darkness, Into the Light”

  1. I have family and friends who have gone through child abuse , i can’t relate personally but i can empathise. I am glad that you managed to reclaim your life back…… I wish you all the success with your book, it’s a hard story to tell but even if your story reaches and helps one person, it’s more than what would have happened if you never wrote the words.

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    • I was abused as a child locked in a closet all night at five years old.pulled across the room by my hair.beat with spoons belts.switches.I went hungry. locked out made to sleep in the cold outside on a old couch in the winter.All the welfare money went for my moms boyfriend.All my clothes coats and shoes came from Associated Charities.I was never told I was loved I didn’t get Christmas or Birthday presents ever.I went on to a abusive relationship where he almost killed me more then once.I was diagnosed with Ptsd and depression from my traumatic childhood.

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      • I am so sorry any innocent child has to go through those kinds of things. I know what it feels like not to be loved. I see you are married with 3 children and 1 grandchild, I hope this means you have dealt with your past and have a good life now. If not I hope one of my blogs about how I worked through the effects of child abuse helps you. Children are here to be loved not abused.

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      • So sorry ! My son who was never abused but thinks he was should read this! He hasn’t spoken to me in 6 yrs – zero clue why. 2 parent mid class upbringing he went to private schools was involved in everything- we were PRESENT always loving .. I’d adopt you if I could ! Thanks for sharing and Always may you be Blessed!

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  2. The chinese character for crisis has 2 meanings:
    danger
    opportunity
    I believe the danger is gone and you are using this opportunity to inspire others to rise above this miasma of error. Good work!

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  3. I’d like to read this book. A Christian recovery story gives hope. I struggle with where God has been leading me out of the abuses in my life. I thank you for your courage.

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  4. Thank you for your comment. I hope my book gets published. I think it could help a lot of people. As I posted in one of my blogs, I will see to it that everyone that follows my website gets a copy of the manuscript, if it doesn’t get published. God is with you and if you read my blogs they tell the different ways that I let God direct my path through recovery. You’ll get there, just know that you are never alone in your quest for freedom from the past. Peace be with you.

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    • I’m hoping it gets published because many suffer in Silence affecting our lives so very badly like you said making bad choices because we just don’t know any better and her self-esteem is usually pretty low after what has happened to us as children it’s better we shed light on this so people become more aware children and adults alike

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    • It’s hard to know what to say sometimes. Just accept them with their flaws and let them know you understand. Give them my website address, maybe one of my blogs might help and give them something to talk about. I wish my book was published, I’m sure it would help. They pretty much have to reach a point where they are tired of suffering and want to change their life. I wish I had some magic words that would make everything better. I did a lot of things I’m not proud of during my effected years, but life is great now. I hope all those you counsel will find their way some day. Just love them no matter what, that’s what they were missing when they were growing up.

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  8. I am also a formerly abused child. I don’t like to refer to myself as a survivor because I feel I’m more than that; I like to call myself a sur-thriver! One question I have for you is this. I have considered writing my story for years and have been encouraged by many to do so. I worry that I will cause my siblings pain and embarrassment and I do still live some lingering feelings of guilt for the pain that I caused my family when I came forward with the truth many years ago. I don’t want to cause them
    more pain and embarrassment. Did you have to overcome that when you wrote your story? If so, how were you able to do so?

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    • Hi Sherri,

      I like that, “sur-thriver”
      I’m old enough that most of my family has passed and my situation may be different than yours. I had to get the permission of my existing family to use my name and theirs when writing my book. I was going to use a pseudonym but had an agent tell me it would sell better if I used my own name. The family all told me to use real names. I didn’t cause anyone any pain. My younger brother chose not to acknowledge there was a problem in our house, but my older brother and I were on the same page.
      If you have a truth to tell, then tell it, somehow, someway. There are those out there like you and I that need to know they are not alone in their struggle to overcome. Legally you may have to get permission to use real names, to avoid any law suites.

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    • Sorry you were abused, I know what it feels like. If you want to write, just sit down and write everything that comes to your thought, then go back and put it in order and edit it. If you can’t write, you can hire a ghostwriter to write it for you. I hope you have had healing from the effects. God bless.

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  12. Its like you read my mind! You appear to know a lot about this,
    like you wrote the book in it or something. I think that
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    An excellent read. I’ll definitely be back.

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  13. You could definitely see your enthusiasm within the article you write.
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    are not afraid to say how they believe. Always follow your heart.

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  21. I am just now starting my journey or realizing I’m still in he survival part of my life and I trying to get to the living part. My mother passed away 1.5 years ago, she suffered with bipolar disorder as a single parent. When I lot her to ovarian cancer it flared everything up that I bought had passed causing panick attacks and severe anxiety from the years of abuse. We parted on God terms but the past was/is still there. I’m very interested in reading your story and how you’ve overcome these things to get to the living part.

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    • My book is not published yet. I have been thinking about posting it on my website. Also, my blogs are about my healing process. They are written to show people there is a better way, I found it and so can you.
      I will do an internet blast on my website and my Facebook page when my book is either published or posted on my site or on Amazon. I hope it will be soon.

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  22. I lived a semi abusive life with my mother. She passed at 94 a couple of years ago. Single mom who did not know how to show love. Never got a kiss or hug, and only negative feedback. She was extremely quick to anger, even when trying to thread a needle. She would get so angry with my brother she would bare her teeth like an animal. Money was tight in our home, so God forbid if you saw a penny on the kitchen counter and took it to buy penny candy. I was slapped quite hard in the face by my aunt who lived with us and my mother quite often. When I was four I won a playground beauty pageant and my mother told me on the way home, that I would not have won if it had not rained. She said many did not show up. That is the earliest I remember her abuse. Being a child, I did not understand it. With no father, I had only her. This abuse was mixed with a few happy times however.

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  23. I can relate. I am sorry you did not get the love you deserved. I never got a hug or kiss either, but my abuser was my father. My mother passed 7 years ago at 93. Although she did not abuse me as such, she did allow it to happen, I believe out of fear. Although he did not abuse her physically, her abuse was having to witness my abuse and not knowing how to stop it. Abuse takes many forms. No matter the form it is not right. I would give my life for my daughter and that’s the way it should be. True mother’s love should be insurmountable. God loves you. His love is what got me through and healed all my wounds. I hope you have found peace. Much Love, Michele

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